Mr. tonyburgess1969, (and anyone else out there this applies to)

You are the artist and the words are your paint - use them however you like to perfect your craft or make your art.

Don’t let someone’s predefined notions of what another “should” or “should not” do hold you back from your words and silence you.

My $0.02

I’m a little confused to why the conversation was through messages and not in person but okay, that’s cool.

Much like everything I tend to orchestrate, it’s logistics. Romy had gone to bed and I was still up finishing things up.  It’s kind of like our silent alarm, she had the video monitor and I had my ears. By the time the monitor had picked up the sounds I had already been in, out, made the bottle, and back in. She’s at one end of the apartment and I’m at the other (right next door to Mr. Cranky Diaper).

Once he was down (he gone) there is a quiet period we just instinctively follow for a few minutes to make sure he’s not faking us out. He’s good at that. He’ll be “asleep” for 5 minutes and then be like “SURPRISE MOTHA’FUCKA!” (only that comes out as screams and cries). So we have radio silence as it were so that if he starts any tiny cries we can hear and soothe accordingly. 

People would be surprised, I think, at how much our communication mediums vary in any given situation but it keeps comms flowing which is a big deal. Spoken word can transition into text, facebook, letters on the whiteboard, and back into speech without interruption in the flow. 

TL;DR - Romy was in bed, Gavin was crying, and if we talked he would have said in babytalk “SURPRISE MOTHA’FUCKA’!” 

I very rarely share personal conversations Romy and I have but this very quick interaction she and I had, when Gavin woke up at midnight, seems to highlight much of the way I view myself as Gavin’s dad.

I struggle with how nebulous he seems at times where nothing I do can satisfy but she only need to give a hug and he’s in baby bliss.

Other times, and this is mostly the thing, I don’t know when to take him for a walk, when to read, when to play music, etc… As the appropriate response to the situation.

Seems my choices still need some guidance until I understand the SOP of being his dad. I’m so conditioned to think in absolutes (am I a sith?!?!) that is give anything for a run book or field manual.

Once I know what I’m doing (going to the park) I know how to behave, what my contingencies are (diapers, food, outfit, hat) and am equipped to handle it.

So when I act, like tonight, without having to ask or be told it is certainly a confidence booster that I’m, at least, learning.

Anyone else struggle like this with their first (or second, third, etc?)

15 Movie Thing

The Film Lover Challenge a.k.a. Couch Potato Challenge. List 15 movies that you love as fast as you can! Then tag 5 humans.

I was tagged by cawfeetalk & helms-deep

  1. Blazing Saddles
  2. Vanilla Sky
  3. The Devil’s Rejects
  4. Equilibrium
  5. Dredd
  6. Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
  7. Monty Python and the Holy Grail
  8. The Longest Day
  9. Unforgiven
  10. Tombstone
  11. The Nightmare Before Christmas
  12. Patton
  13. Boys Don’t Cry
  14. Seven
  15. The Empire Strikes Back

I think I’m about 2 weeks late to this party so I think you’ve all been tagged already.  If not, I’ll add a few names  romyslife, sunwillrisetoday, theblueangelstar, caffeinatedcephalopod, jaymarsee